Time For An Update!
Right now I’m sitting in my university library and for the first time in quite a while I’m going to write something that isn’t academic. For the past few weeks of my life I have spent nearly every waking moment in this library and although I am slow with progress, I’m finally making some. I have been so busy recently, not only being in the library but in the past month I have been to Canterbury to visit some friends, had my sister come visit and even gone back home to Essex.
At every point in your university degree you will probably find you have moments of doubt, be it academically, mentally, or socially. I barely remember my first year, it all feels like a blur and I have come so far since then. It seems after speaking to a few people, I am not the only one that didn't really enjoy their first year. Admittedly, I often doubt myself about things, especially when it comes to academic work. Repeatedly I have said how my degree may not have been the wisest choice but when I’m sitting here writing my dissertation, using English language with a mixture of something more media-based I can see how it fits and relates.I struggle a lot with my degree, I have never set myself up for expectations because then you’re always out for some sort of disappointment if you don’t achieve a desired grade. I just think whatever happens, happens and sometimes I will be disappointed and sometimes I will be happy. I’m one of the people that if they just scrape the 2.1 boundary then they are over the moon because for me that is really good. I guess everyone works at different standards, so never get yourself down if someone is getting better than you, even when you're achieving your best.
A lot of the time I can be the laziest person and a really
bad student. I am known to leave things to the last minute and when you’re at
university then this probably isn’t the best of moves. As a lot of you will
know, if you read my blog posts frequently, or know me personally, Winchester
has provoked a mixture of feelings in my head. I am insanely fickle on a
day-to-day basis but finally I feel that Winchester has stolen my heart.
[Insert puke noises here]. Prepare for the next few sentences to be pretty
soppy.
This last semester is definitely a whirlwind, whilst it has undoubtedly
been the most stressful one to date, it has also been amazing – two huge
contrasts. I have clicked with a new group of people and grown incredibly close to them in such a small space of time. It often leaves me
wondering why we never knew each other before, but I don’t dwell on that because
I really do think they will remain in my life a lot longer than the last month
or so we have of university. You know the kind of people that just make you feel comfortable and that don't judge you on things - well that's them!
I am not being naïve and saying that your degree and grade
doesn’t matter because that’d be stupid. I didn't decide to come to uni to spend thousands
of pounds on not caring about my grades; however there is a lot more to the
university experience than the work. I was so worried I would always have
negative memories of this place but that is definitely not the case. Winchester is a special place and if you go to this university then the experience really is what you make of it due to it's size and limited entertainment.Three years is
a huge amount of time and of course over that time things aren’t always going
to run smoothly. University provides all sorts of memories. You will meet
people you love, people you dislike, and those that are just all part of the
experience. I cannot believe how soon it all is to ending, it hasn’t quite hit
me yet. I can’t believe it’s been almost a year since I took the plunge and
moved to Germany for four months as part of Erasmus. I remember how I felt when
that all ended and that feeling is going to be a hundred times worse when
university finishes.
I have no plans. I have no time to make plans at this
current moment in time but I am really excited at all the possibilities. I’m
scared, but a good kind of scared. I’m ambitious and I hope to fulfil as many
ambitions as I can before I settle down. Since talking to a friend, my current
ideas are to move to Germany again but this time to partake in an intensive course of German so I
can get to grips with the language and make the reality of moving out there
more prominent. That was something that annoyed me when I was there before, I didn't make an effort to learn the language. I really, really do love the country, hence why I’m even
writing my dissertation about it. That’s another thing that I’m so pleased
about. Since posting my questionnaire the other night I have had such a great
amount of responses which are definitely aiding my argument, so fingers crossed
with that!
Today I also made a decision to purchase a reading ticket today! I
went back in 2008 and it was incredible. The line-up never seems to disappoint
me, but I can be a typical girl when it comes to the lack of washing so I’m not
sure how I’m going to deal with that, but we will see. I am so excited that A
Day to Remember, Enter Shikari, Warpaint, Disclosure, Imagine Dragons and
Bombay Bicycle Club are part of the line-up. Bombay's new album is so addictive. Since I went to Canterbury for the weekend of Valentine’s
day I have had it on repeat. It’s such a great album for summer and I really
want to see them live. They’re a band I kind of forgot about until recently. I
also forget Lucy Rose did vocals for some of their songs too. I hope we get
to hear new material from her soon.
Man, I can’t wait for all my work to be done so I can have fun
and not feel guilty about it, every time I’m not doing work I get a panicky
feeling in my stomach, like this half an hour I have spent writing this. Oh
well, I guess there needs to be a balance between work and play. I still find
time to go out and get drunk too, like any good student does. It’s going to be
really strange moving everything out the house I have spent the last two years
in. It’s going to be weird moving back to Essex too and everyone going in
different directions. I guess it’s called growing up. Ah, I am going to be
twenty-one soon! I have to start acting responsible and adult-like. Why do we
have to grow up? It sucks. I guess it needs to happen one day, and that day is
nearing!
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