Reflecting, Christmas and the New Year!
Reflecting, Christmas and the New Year!
I’m sitting in an empty house whilst the rest of my house
has either gone home for Christmas already, at uni or at work. It’s that
awkward time where if I leave I am undoubtedly going to get stuck in traffic
trying to get back to Essex, so I’m waiting to leave a bit later. I cannot wait to get home, I absolutely adore my friends back there and love when we are all reunited. I do like
moments like this, time on my own to just let my mind and thoughts wander a bit
with some mellow music in the background to put me into my creative cocoon. I've been listening to Josh Record's song 'Bones' on repeat now. It's safe to say I'm absolutely loving this song.
A conversation with someone the other night had them telling
me I do not write enough and I guess this is true. I really don’t feel like I
have the time to just write about pointless things because every time I write a
blog post I start to think about my degree, but then I realise how much I love
writing and want to pursue it as a career and I don’t feel as bad. I like the
idea of having the ability to stop someone’s normal trail of thought with
something I’ve written; to make them look at a situation in a different light
or just maybe even inspire them a little (I’d like that). Sure there will be
people that read my stuff and feel nothing, or people that don’t even
acknowledge a post I create. I can understand the fact it’s not for everyone
but all I ever do is be honest and I guess I’m not afraid to write how I feel
and show that there’s a deeper side to me. I guess the breaking down of that
kind of wall terrifies people, but not me.
Earlier I said
goodbye to my friend Alina who has been over from Dusseldorf for a semester
which was extremely emotional, more than I thought it would be. I am such a sap sometimes! Goodbyes are always difficult but they are a part of life. It’s been great having her over here and being able to get to know
her because unfortunately we didn’t know each other when I was over in
Dusseldorf. We constantly said how nice it is to be able to communicate about
places that both of us know. Her view of England has made me really appreciate
it as a country, even though it can all get on our nerves sometimes. I guess
that’s always going to be the case with somewhere you have spent most of your
life because although new is good, it will never stay new forever.
I feel this academic year is the chance to make up for lost
time, it’s about doing all the things you want to do as you realise your time
is coming to an end. It’s about having fun, well as much as you can in third
year… In the entire time my housemates and I have lived in this house, which is
nearly two years, we have never had a meal with all of us at the same time.
Last night we did this for the first time and had a Christmas meal of roast
chicken, veg, roast potatoes and all that jazz. We did the full whammy of
secret Santa, food, games and a Christmas movie to top it all off! Secret Santa
was ridiculously hard to keep a secret. We had so many slip ups with it but
nevertheless it still stayed pretty unknown except for when I tried to smartly
pick up this piece of paper which I thought was an envelope with the label for
my person, then after picking it up realised it was not and was in fact just
covering the name…oops. It was just awful luck that the only person to see the
name was the person I had for secret Santa. I’m so silly sometimes. We all
ended up buying for the person that was buying for us which was a huge
coincidence. What are the chances? For once I am feeling quite Christmassy this
year which is unusual for me but I’m not complaining.
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Housemates minus Suzie who was taking the picture! |
Today we had possible new tenants look round the house which
was quite strange and a lot of you can probably relate with me on this. Two
years in this house has gone so quickly and it’s crazy thinking that this time
next year six different tenants will be in our places. It’s weird how attached
we have become to our house. I much prefer living separate from my family and I
really can’t wait to have my own place one day! I’d definitely say I’m
independent, most of the time I don’t mind my own company. It’d be awesome to
live with friends again though; I think I’d like that. I guess we’ll just have
to see what the future has in store.
I always, always find the end of a semester emotional in
many ways. I always become really reflective. The end of an annual year is the
end of another chapter of your life. People are always get obsessed with new
years’ resolutions and the whole ‘a new year - a new me’, but in reality you
can change any time you want to. I read something about this recently and it
certainly is true. I don’t know why people feel they have to wait until January
of a new year to do something different or give up a habit because it can begin
whenever you want it to. I always say I’ll do something like stop eating
chocolate, take up a new hobby, lose weight etc and I never stick to it. It’s
just that kind of pressure that comes with a new year, although I don’t know
why we should feel it. I guess it’s a kind of convergence because everyone is
doing it, we feel as if we have to as well. Please for god sake do not talk
about how 2014 will be your year though; because every year is your own and any
year is what you make of it, the number is totally insignificant. There will
always be years which have more positive memories than bad and vice versa. I’m petrified
and optimistic at the same time, about the next year just like any other.
Although who knows, the next few weeks could make this year the best yet? You
never know what’s coming your way. 2013 has already been a pretty spectacular
year in my eyes so I can’t complain! On that note I will say one final thing of
how I hope everyone has an amazing break from uni and a great Christmas/New
Year! I guess I better get packing and stop distracting myself otherwise I will never start!
Take care,
Laura May.
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